[toyZombies]

That I've slept with 25 boys and 11 women, at 17.

[dontknownuthin]

Weird is not the word I would use. I think it's deeply concerning. I think you are looking for something you aren't going to find in another person. Acceptance, love, something. I have no idea. Is it an extremely excessive number? Yes. A thousand times, yes.

You need counseling. You also need to simply stop having sex until you feel good about yourself. The route you are taking is not going to end with a good and healthy relationship with anyone. You are setting yourself up to have a reputation as a "slut", which I would never call anyone but believe me, people will start calling you that and worse. You will become a person, if you haven't already, who others just see as someone to take advantage of - not someone to introduce to their friends and families, or seriously date, or treat like a human being. You deserve better. The good news is that at your age, you will soon be in a new environment whether you go to college, the military or job training after high school, so you have the chance to start over with new behavior and earn a better reputation, show people to treat you with respect. You do that by treating yourself with respect.

You are also setting yourself up to be at extremely high risk to contract venereal diseases and for teen pregnancy, both of which can ruin your life.

Go to your school counselor or nurse and ask for help. If you can, talk to your parents. You don't have to tell them about your sexual history but you can tell them that you feel you need counseling about very personal things, and would appreciate their help getting counseling for you.

[toyZombies]

I wouldn't say it's a self esteem issue. I'm comfortable with who I am, but I am sick of meeting people I like who shy away from my past.

Even when we go to the clinic and I prove that I'm clean.

[joypulv]

So boys but not girls, or women and not men? Interesting choice of words.

Interesting too that you are online asking strangers this point-blank question of just 2 numbers as though that's what it's all about. Or are you notching the numbers on your bedpost defiantly for all to see and judge? If you are comfortable with who you are, why are you asking anyone if it's weird?
I never discussed how many people I had had sex with, back in the day... over 40 years ago..

[Alty]

Sounds to me like you're bragging, and don't realize that this isn't something to brag about.

If what you're saying is the truth, and I highly doubt that it is, then you need professional help.