I need to leave my husband
I have been married for 15 years and with my husband for 18. We have no kids, but my husband and I are done. Every day I pray to God to help me leave him. In a nut shell, my husband and I have not had intimate relations in almost 7 years, but this has been due to his medical condition for the past 4 years. However, he has never really been affectionate. The only time he has ever been affectionate is when he has been drinking (which is quite abit) and then I feel like I am being groped. He is 54 years old and is now trying to get disability and has not worked in several months. I am on unemployment and going to school to become a teacher (almost done!). Since he has not been working and can't do anything due to his disability, he sits home and watches TV or goes on the computer to watch porn or his friend come over and drinks with him. His medication makes him twice as susceptible to becoming drunk, but he won't stop (he slows down, but never stops entirely). We have had an enormous amount of financial stress this past year and we are going through a foreclosure. I have been planning to get my own apartment for over a year, but something always interferes. Instead of making him leave, I plan to move out because my mother-in-law lives with us right now and it wouldn't be fair for me to live in the house (which we're going to lose anyways) and not him, but he has no income coming in and I feel obligated to stay until his disability payments start arriving. The truth is I wish I could just pack up and leave right now, but I know that is not possible. We have been trying to sell the house but with the market being what it is, it house isn't moving for what we need to sell it for. I NEED HELP! My sleep is being affected and I look much older than I am. Any advice